Jul 31, 2010

Yaadein....

Khayalon mein, koi guftgoo hui
Sawalon mein, kuch uljhanein bani
Phir uska khayal aayaa, aaj
Phir kuch aankhein nam huin
Wo pehla ehsaaas phir se,
Wo pehli baarish yaad aayi
Wo mulaakaatein, wo baatein
Aaj phir yaad aayein...
Kuch zindagi laga, tham si gayi hai
Aur phir wo mod yaad aaya
Jahaan, hum ajnabee se ban gaye they
Jahaan, ye saare nagme bikhar gaye they
Aur phir, wo muskuraana, wo sataana
Wo ruthna, wo manaana yaad aaya
Kuch sikhwey jo zindagi se kiye
Kuch lamhe, jo tanha jeeye
Phir wo tamaan umra, jo kabhi ehsaason mein simati theen
Aur wo sapne, jinki yaadein, aaj bhi mujhse simati theen
Zakhmon mein bhi bas tera fasana tha
Jaise samjhe hi nahi, kya apna, kya begana tha
Wo saath, pal do pal ka, wo zamana yaad aaya
Aur kya bayaan karein jaalim, ki
Tera har sitam bhi itna yaad aaya...

Jul 5, 2010

Kuch aisi thi riwayat

Manzil na sahi, tera sahara hi sahi
Saath naa sahi, tera aasara hi sahi
Chahey to mujhe rakh, yun hi betaab
Par is betaabi ko umeed ka haunsla hi sahi

Arson se tere abra ki chahat liye firti rahi
Aaj thehri hoon, ki shayad tu apne shamiyaane ka pata to de
Tujhse chaha hi kab, har faisla ho mere haathon mein
Bas ye khamoshi tod kar, ab tera mashwara to de

Chahe to rakh poora ikhtiyaar mere nasib par,
Guzarish hai bas itni, khafa agar ho to, khata maaf kar de

Jun 29, 2010

Aawara Kalam

Phir kuch lamhe guzare, aur unke baad
Ek shaayar ka nazma, kuch yun yaad aaya
Ek korey kaagaz pe, dil ke kissey bayaan kare
Aur phir kuch kisson mein, khud ko uljha paaya

Kuch kisson mein, mera zikra tha aur kuch aise
Jaise main khud ko dhoondti hi jaa rahi thi,
Aur is talaash mein, ek ajnabee saksh saamne aaya
Wo saksh, jo mujh mein tha, mujhsa hi, par phir bhi
Us sey dooriyan kuch is qadar badhati gayeen,
Ki jab kuch arson baad, uska phir khyaal aaya
Main door, bahut door jaa chuki thi, us har ek pal mein
Shayad meri talaash hi, meri sakshiyat ka pehchaan thi..

Door in raahon pe, aaj bhi kisi ka intezaar tha...
Bas usi ajnabi ki talab mein, umra kaatati jaa rahi thi
Kuch aur manzilein tay karti jaa rahi thi, aur bekhayaal
Un raahon pe, kuch aur naye kissey, mujhse waakif huye
Jinki mujhe koi justjoo naa thi, bas aawargi mein mashroof they
Meri aawara kalam, kuch naye muqaam aur kuch purani yaadein...

Koi aawaaz nahi, wahaan ek gumnaam khamoshi thi,
Mere saath phir bhi, ek badgumaan si behoshi thi
Jisme talaash thi, kuch kisson ki, kuch baaton ki
Kuch yaadon ki aur phir tay karna tha, ye purana safar
Ek nayi ummeed ke saath, ki manzilein haansil to hongi
Aur, meri talaash mein shaamil hoga, wo humsafar bhi....

May 23, 2010

Let me breathe, Leave me be...

I started to wonder,
Whats going under?
And how many deals have been made?
And the number of times, I've been laid

I move away thinking, its doing no good
Be it hundred or thousand miles, it just wont help
Just like I thought, it anyways would
Help me, I am begging you please
Cuz you have got the power, down on my knees
Give me some kind of life
Let me breathe, leave me be...

Take these chains off
Take'em off my heart
Don't you see man, I cant take it
You got me living and every time, you repeat it
I dont wish to feel like that bloodstone
That hurts the hands, holding it

Reach out to me, I'm lying by the grave
I tried to run, but I'm tied to you like a slave
Its my fault for loving you sooo
You were so precious, how could I know
And then ytou turned mean overnight
Poor, poor me and my bleeding plight

I dont owe you anything
Why cant I get you out of my life
Through it all, the memories cling
And I'm playing hide and seek
With my gloomy days and sleepless nights

Help me because, I'm begging you please
You have got the power down on my knees
Give me some kind of life
=With or without you, you should let me survive
Just let me breathe, leave me be...

I wanna tell ya and I think, you ought to know
The way you're treating me, I know i'll have to go
I have heard the rumors and it seems, they're coming true
You have been doing what suits ya and thats nothing new
Do what you want to do
But please see, what you have put me through
And how I suffer for your love

You say what you want to say

May 18, 2010

Lamhon ki baatein

Ye baatein hai un lamhon ki,
Jab ek ehsaas, ek saaz banta hai
Aur wo saaz, kitne aur ehsaason mein tabdeel hota hai

Ye baatein hai un lamhon ki,
Jab ek saaya, kisi ka saath banta hai
Aur wo saath, kuch aur lamhon ka safar

Ye baatein hai un lamhon ki,
Jab ek aahat, se ek ehsaas judta hai
Aur wo ehsaas, har pal kuch kehta hai

Ye baatein hai un lamhon ki,
Jab kisi ki khamoshi mein bhi, ek aawaaz sunti hai
Aur wo aawaaz, kisi tanha dil ki aarzoo banti hai

Ye baatein hai un lamhon ki,
Jab kuch ajnabee bhi apne se lagte hain
Aur wo apne, har safar mein humsafar ki tarah saath chalte hain

Ye baatein hai, un lamhon ki
Jab khuda ki razaa se pehle, koi yaad aata hai
Aur un yaadon mein, ek razaamandi ki talaash hoti hai

Ye baatein hain, un lamhon ki
Jin lamhon mein, baatein kam hoti hain,
Aur kuch baaton mein hi kai lamhe guzar jaatein hai

Ye baatein hain, un lamhon ki
Jab lamhon mein, ek zindagi dhal jati hai,
Aur us zindagi mein, lamhon ka ehsaas hi nahi hota

Ye wo khubsoorat lamhe hain,
Jo zindagi mein ehsaas aur jism mein rooh ki tarah baste hain

Mar 12, 2010

& I JUST WONDER

I wonder why there are shades of grey
When you dont want them, this way
I wonder why things fall apart
And we end being just a retard
I wonder why pieces go insane
When you know you are the only sane
I wonder why we often love without a reason
When what only exists is just a treason
I wonder why i loose myself to people like you
Who understand nothing, beyond things to do......
All I can do today, is to leave it all to you
Because you will never understand, what you mean to me...........

Share & Heal (A story bout hearts)

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why, your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but it was full of scars. It had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine. Mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared."

"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love, is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

Feb 7, 2010

Its not bout How I feel?

We often care about how does it feel?
But barely of, how we make 'em feel?
We fight, we argue and we often appeal
But we never know bout, how to deal?
And it has always been, so hard to seal
The bonds that we make, cuz we don't know if they are real
For until we loose them, and until they are all spilled...

If only we could look beyond me and you,
We could talk more often and even try to heal
But the walls around, they just tend to kill
The real us, inside and leaves us so unfullfilled

We seek to forsee all, when we really tend to ignore
What lies right before, we just dun care to restore
At tymes I wonder, if & how we can ever fulfill?
The gaps that we need to, if all we care, is just to chill....

Khwaab to khwaab hain

Intezaar ki umra kabhi kam nahi hoti,
Yun to sadiyaan nikal jaati hain....
Hum samajhte the, rastey kahin to milte hongey
Par khwaab to khwaab hain,
Unki haqeeqat kuch judaa si hoti hai....
Kabhi jawaan, kabhi fanaa si hoti hai....

Ab aur intezaar kahaan, aur wo pyaar kahaan,
Jab aietbaar toot jaye, aur haqeeqat ko khud ke saamne paayein,
To kaise yakeen kar lein, ki wo apne hi sapne the
Jo tujhse judey, aur tu yun hi ajnabee sa raha
Yun hi shayad, har chahat ruswan si hoti hai
Palkon ke tale jo duniya basti thi...
Ab wo bhi mujhpe kuch aise hansti hai
Aur bas ye hi kehti hai....

Khwaab to bas khwaab hain,
Unki haqeeqat kuch juda si hoti hai...
Kabhi tanha, kabhi ramaa si hoti hai...

Kuch lamhey jinki talaash thi, wo yunhi udaas se lagte hain
Main shikwa karoon bhi to kinse, wo jo beparvaah se dikhte hain
Taaruff karte to, aur intezaar muqqamal tha
Takkaluff mein, bas besabri hi badhti hai..
Aakhir... ye wo khwaab hi hain

Khwaab to bas khwaab hotey ain,
Kyunki unki haqeeqat kuch juda si hoti hai....
Kabhi kahaan, kabhi kahaan si hoti hai......

Jan 27, 2010

Wo bhi insaan hai .........

Wo jo mohabbat karta hai, wo bhi hai insaan
Wo jo nafrat mein jalta hai, wo bhi hai insaan

Wo jo sapne sajaata hai, wo bhi hai insaan
wo jo unhe raundh ke jaata hai, wo bhi hai insaan

Wo jiski buinyaad hi jhoothi hai, wo bhi hai insaan
Wo jo sach ki fariyaad karta hai, wo bhi hai insaan

Wo jo sabko ruswa karta hai, wo bhi hai insaan
Aur wo jo khud pe hasta hai, wo bhi hai insaan

Jiska sach hi fareb hai, wo bhi hai insaan
Wo jo fareb se aazad hai, wo bhi hai insaan

Phir fark kaisa, us mein aur is mein?
Ek daulat ke nashe mein andha hai, ek khuda ka bashinda hai,
Ek sach ka paigaam hai, ek sachaai se anjaan hai,
Ek rab se darta hai, aur ek sabse mohabbat karta hai

Fark hai bas itna dono mein, agar samjho to
Ek sirf.... ek insaan hai, jo khud se abhi anjaan hai,
Aur ek wo farishta hai, jo insaaniyat ka nigehbaan hai

Jan 26, 2010

Yun to adhoori si.......

Khwabon mein bhi parchayian dikhti hain
Unki aankhon mein kuch gehraiyan dikhti hain
Kabhi samandar mein doob bhi jaayein to
Us paar bhi, kuch ubharti kashtiyan dikhti hain

Paimaane toot bhi jayein to, nasha kam nahi hota
Nazrein milte hi unse, kuch hairaniyan dikhti hain
Unke ruksaar pe hi kuch likha nahi hota,
Unki tasveeron mein bhi sachaiyan dikhti hain

Mehfilon mein wo begaane hotey hain,
To mere rooh ko, beimaniyan dikhti hain
Chahat mein jalna to dustoor hai yahaan,
Phir roshni mein, kyun viraaniyan dikhti hain

Kehne ko, aankhon ki jubaan bhi hoti hai
Tabhi khamoshi mein, ruswaiyan dikhti hain
Faaslon ko tai karnne ki koshish mein
Kabhi meelon tujhse tanhayian dikhti hain

Kuch sawaal unki nigahein, kabool nahi karti
Aur merey ehsaason mein udaasiyan palti hain
Usey ilma bhi nahi hota, mere intezaar ka
Aur uski justjoo mein, yun hi sadiyaan katati hain

Jannat dikhayi thi kabhi, usne apni aagosh mein leke
Phir is dil ka kasoor hi kya, jo ab bechainian badhti hain
Hum muskuraane ki koshish bhi karte hain sahib,
Par in aankhon se, ye baarishein yun hi girati hain

Kuch iqraar aur kuch inkaar they uski baaton mein
Aur mujhe is uljhan se bas, nakaamiyan dikhti hain
Phir bhi, har dhaagey ko thaam ke rakha hai
Uske khyal se bhi ruswa hona, bepaakiyaan lagti hain

Farishton se, shikwa karne ke hauslein nahi hote
Kyunki phir tamaan umra ki, judaayian dikhti hain
Aarzoo, kitni bhi besabar ho jaaye, zehan mein
Umeed humse kehti hai, ye bhi nishaniyan milti hain

Hum kuch yun hi majboor hain, is ishq mein
Ki us sey ek faasla bhi, duswaariyan lagti hain
Kabhi to dastak hogi, uske dil pe bhi sahi
Yun to adhoori si, ye zindagaaniyan lagti hain

Jan 23, 2010

Its a Good Night

There is a trail of light, when the sun sets out...

The birds are chirping, as they brush thru the cloud

The trees seem tinted, in the dull golden light

And the souls are set free, as they board the flight

The flight to a world, where they feel they belong

They take to destinations, for they don't wish to be alone

And now the hustle of the city, is speeding its way back home

Some retort to speeding and yet some, take it very slow

No, it's not hailing, there is no rainpour, no snow

There is a belonging back there, where they all want to go

To their folks, their friends to see the remaining show

There is no vaccum that seems to be unfufilled

Yet inside every heart, there is a task uphill

Some keep it quiet but some beans are spilled

Now the evening transcends, and so does the twilight

To run from the fade out, they turn up their lights

Its time to setlle down, cuz the lights ain't that bright

And we are back to the couches, praying its a good night...

Jan 21, 2010

Would you believe me?

Whenever I thought of it, I knw it could be just another flick
But then, when I got close to it, I felt it had got me freak
And now when I look back at it, I agree, it was meant to be

Everytime I was sinking down, And I wouldn't wanna leave the town
I have been sooo loving it, that I was longing in pieces and bits

Every night that I go to bed, I look out at the mellow moon
I wonder if he thinks the same, for I've been singing the looney tunes

No wonder, I was surprised, when I found him right beside
No matter it was just a dream, but I know I've been loving him

Morning sun and the cold storms, they been telling me to accept the norms
But my heart just skips a beat, If and when he would repeat
Those three magical words to me, Oh baby! I love you, cant you see?
So, I could shy away and say 'Love you too'....would you believe me?

Jan 10, 2010

I wish to abide..........

I was moving at my pace,
Trying to stay out of the race
I was reaching out to space
Until, I spotted this menace

Sinking deep into my soul
I could see it through my eyes
Yet it managed to patrol,
And it took me for a ride

Now, that I have it tried
I think I had better denied
That what came as a tide
And left me all surprised

But now I wish to abide
For I never wanted to reside
Where the vices follow in
And the truth gets maligned

Yes, now i wish to abide
For I choose to preside
The course of events ahead
And have the city painted RED
To be able, to go peacefully to my bed
And wake up with a smile, that just spreads..............

Life takes care ....................

Ever pondered about the strange feelings that we encounter in our day to day life? Feelings that make you push yourself that extra mile, feelings those are suggestive of curbing your strong innate desires, feelings that tell you to stop before you fall, an unpredictable feeling of nostalgia, the pangs, moments of illogical excitement, unexplanable visions, a festive feeling, a sudden breakout, deceptive noises or a cacophony, you can never relate to? Why do these occur?

These are some kind of reactions to the extrenal environment that enshrines us, our body and our souls. Though involutarily, the brain recieves messages based of every encounter with the exteriors and then, the same is manifested by our naked souls, as a vibe, an intution or a gut feeling. Its more than often, irradical and deceptive to the concious human brain. And thats what makes us wonder, why do we have this sudden inertia, a resistance to do something or an unquestionable desire to stretch beyond the usual limits. We often live in a denial that these instincts are illogical and just an illusion, born out of our thought patterns. but a close observation reveals a connection, that might be deep-seated and covered under the sheets. The subconcious mind presumably reacts to every interaction, around a humans' aura. It recieves, percieves and decodes, subconciously and creates thought patterns which stay sealed, until one accepts the need to reveal them. This happens very rarely though because, the human brain by its constitution is designed to question, think and find a reason behind, what comes across. If it suceeds in doing so, it accepts the action and acts accordingly. However, most of the times, we humans live in denial and unacceptance of such vibes as our mind, fails to decode the underlying connections and thus the message delivered is never interpreted. In such circumstances, we choose to ignore and move on. We accept ignorance as the only truth and start living with it.

However, the human soul, that lies encapsulated deep within is seldom influenced by brain and as such, treats the denial as a rejected reality. It thus, keeps sending visibly weaker signals to brain, until some day the denial illustrates the reality, as an incident or occurence. Soul, always abides by every message, it recieves and being infallible, it extrucates the right visions of future. The truth is denial has always been and would continue to be a bliss. Ignorance can calm you down for a bit or make you live in an illusion, which when surfaces alarms you as a harsh reality. The way to live is by being true to yourself, by conversing with your soul and accepting, the vibes that erupt by examining the incidences and seeking explanations. Like a friend mentioned to me today, we are all here for a purpose. And that purpose is met by acceptance and faith and the the self realization of truth, which in turn come through unanimous faith in our souls, that unites us with the Almighty and keeps telling "Life takes care" .........................