Aug 31, 2009

My Angel Is Gone....

Most fondly remembered as 'Dadi' by all the kids and servants at home and 'Daroga ji ki Bahu' by the relatives and friends at and around her place, in Varanasi. She was pretty, versatile and just as awesome, a human being. She was my Grandmother, my beautiful and angelic 'dadi'. Without ever preaching, yelling and questioning, she taught me a lot about life. She made me the person, I am today. It was looking at her that I outgrew boundaries and faiths like religion, caste, creed, masters and servants or even animals for that matter. She showed me the way to love, to love God, our fellow beings and even the pets and strays, around. She just had sooo much to give away, without expecting a bit in return. So pure, so vulnerable and so compassionate her love was that no human, could ever fill in the vacuum, her absence has created today. And to top it all, she had the endurance to take it all and still, keep loving. Occasionally, I would be shocked to look at her and believe, she is only a human like us and dwells, on the same land that we do. Does she really belong in here?

She had something about her presence that would beckon men, kids and women from our neighborhood, to come and see her and listen her, talk. Every word she spoke was so human like yet so compelling to allow you to relate to this world, its nuances and fluctuations. There was always an aura around her which depicted a God like form, engraved in a human body. Standing tall at 5'8'' with a beautifully, stunning skin, long tresses and that elegance with which she used to carry herself, she could steal hearts at any age. Kids and elderly would love to hang around her, alike. Her simplicity, eloquence and phenomenal love for mankind, made her a favorite of all. She could sit and narrate, endless stories of the era when my forefathers would struggle for independence and that too, so beautifully that none of her stories would allow me to detest the British rule that was forced onto us. Her love was so selfless and so pure, to evaluate persona's based of origin, profession, or behavior. She just believed in loving, without any strings attached....such was her soul. The beauty of a lady like her, is so deep seated that ages would pass but her fond memories would always dwell, deep within.

'Krishna', as she was named by her parents....she was actually an epitome of generosity, love, wisdom, purity, benevolence, elegance, humanity, endurance and selflessness. She would always try hard to tie in people together, remove any differences that would ever crop up and make everyone believe in the abundance of love and oneness. She was just one person, no one could escape loving and adoring, completely. Such was her beauty.... and, I know like an angel, she will always keep dwelling in our hearts and loving us with even more intensity. I will yet miss all that we shared with each other. Eating together, chatting forever and then, going to bed together. The stories of her childhood, her youth, her pre and post nuptial experiences and her gradual aging. With all this, comes the endless stories she narrated, the grooming tips she shared with me, her selfless love and the care, she would confer in times of pain and the beliefs she inculcated in me, so effortlessly.

Like an angel, I see her around and I am now glad, she has finally united with the Almighty, the God....she was so very resembling to. I love you dadi... and I'll miss you badly, every moment when I have things I could only share with you and especially, when I'm looking at someone to oil my hair. You were and would always be sooo adorable, like a soul mate to me. Rest in peace and keep you always did.


  1. After reading this I feel like I know would have been an honor and privilege to meet "dadi". Your love for her is so apparent, and again, I am truly sorry for your loss, as well as the loss of all those who were fortunate to be in her life. God bless.

  2. no wonder u are the way u are......... i know the secret now, u were lucky to hav a soul like that to be with u in that sort of society