May 26, 2009

I'm Missing You [& I don't know what to do]


“When I first saw you, I was afraid to meet you ... ...
And when I met you, I was afraid to kiss you...
And then when I kissed you, I was afraid to love you...
But now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.”


A stranger you were once, but then with a gentle look, you took my hand. I know, you are not a liar but you lied, you're scared. And now, your eyes keep haunting me, wherever I go. I feel lost and restless, miserable and gross. It has become so intense that I had to stop and think. Why are relationships so plagued? Why cant we just allow the hearts to rule and follow, whatever may come and see no boundaries? I can feel the turmoil, every bit, every second and every minute. I am no longer in control of my emotions and I don’t know which way to turn. The faster my legs go, the less distance I seem to travel... ... I know, all of this is so ridiculous but somehow, it makes me realize, I'm missing something. I'm missing you. I wanted so much to stop, and just be a girl. Follow my heart, run away with you and sing it loud, 'Oh, I love you so... and I can't let you go'

Scarcely do I know, my role play in your life but I do wish, I could be someone to you. I don't know if you would agree to this, but it's said 'If you have to pause and think, whether you love someone or not, the answer is certainly 'NO' because when you love someone, you just know. And my heart says 'Yes', but the head says 'No'. I wonder, why could it not have been simpler, like its in the fairy tales..... and so, "You be the Prince and I'll be the Princess. It's a Love Story, Baby, just say 'Yes'...."

And now that I have felt it, lived it and missed you, I just need you to know 'Yes I love you. I have felt for you strongly and I have missed you too. And there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to you forever.' But I know it's not for the best... So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let you go, so you can know just how much I love you. Maybe if I'm lucky, you'll find your way to me, but if not, I can make it through this. And I do believe, we never loose by loving but just, by holding back... so, I had to let it out to you. You're no longer a stranger......

2 comments:

  1. Wowwww....m so out of words to even comment on this ...simply heart touching blog :)

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